A Letter To My Past Self
Dear younger self:
I know this is strange. But, its me. You. Who you’ll become in a few years.
You were right. You had the answers. Everything you thought was spot on. Even the questions you had were right on point. How did you know? I guess that will remain the mystery of our lives. Maybe the future us can answer that later. Actually, I know he will.
I come to you today to offer you a gift. We’ll have to fight many battles. There are many problems to solve along the way. Many experiences that ultimately will shape our reality into what I am living today.
This is the gift:
YOU ARE RIGHT.
On every topic. Your doubts, your intuition, your thoughts, dreams, emotions are incredibly aligned.
But you have a problem my friend. You don’t see it as such today. But I know, this problem will get you countless hours of anxiety, sleepless hours and oceans made of tears.
Your problem is FEAR.
Your mind is perfect, your heart is perfect. Don’t believe me, there is no need, see it for yourself. Every single time you have removed the imaginary force of FEAR, you have created perfect things, you blossom in ways you yourself are in awe with.
This force doesn’t let you act. Your actions are asleep.
I will not tell you to be fearless. I will not tell you to do something to change, because I know you. There is nobody in this reality that I know better than you my little friend. You won’t listen. You are like a warrior, that’s blind and deaf, fighting with everything you’ve got on pure intuition. If only you would stop, breathe, and SEE what’s around you. You would see things the way they are. You would see the Truth.
And the Truth is this:
You are alone. Alone in the battle field. Fighting no one, but your own FEARS.
That would be enough to shake your world, and EVERYTHING would change.
I know now, that you have to go through the whole thing. The only way is through. The only way out, is with despair, pain and an earth shaking event, that will put you to the ground and release the blindfold you have around your eyes. Many things need to happen until that day comes. Every single event in your life, is screaming at you from afar. Life itself is trying to show you the way. At this moment in time, you call it God. I can tell you I call it the same. But when the word is spoken, two different images and concepts go through our heads simultaneously. You’ll come to learn, the rumors were true. God is everywhere. This creator force is everything, and everywhere. The bearded man image you have, is a worldly image. An image for the children of the world.
It is hard to speak without having a message, without having something to teach. Instead I try to speak Truth. Causes and effects. Describing things as they are. With their purity. With their underlying nature. The rest is up to you.
And since I’m you, don’t worry about it, you’ll come to understand it eventually. And everything will change forever.
Until that time, just know that I don’t hate you. You are the reason this started in the first place.
I love you.
My God is Truth. You’ll understand that someday.
Manu
